Beyond all wisdom
The question remains
Why me?
Why is it that while It's so wrong for me to do one thing, it's so normal for another person to do the same exact thing, just because they're them and I'm me? And it's something you and I both know is harmless?!
And it's people who are not so distant, they're in fact closest family and friends. They're greeted with warm hypocrisy by the same people who design the taboos.
Not particularly me, why does it happen in the world?
Why did God make me if he knew that I'd suffer? And the suffering I'm talking about is because of a stupid fallen world?
Why was I born into all this complication?
God, I'm really sorry to say this, but the only conclusion this has lead me to is that YOU'RE SO DAMN UNFAIR
The problem is I can't fully blame them for that
They're so brainwashed into this crap
The problem isn't a symptom like "wear this and wear that"
They're forced into that ignorant ice age perception of me
They just choose to continue living the illusion
To them, I'm a cute little thing who they'll play with a little then hand to her inevitable destiny, just because the ancestors and their so called "God" says so.
Hence it is completely acceptable and predictable that they expect me to behave like a present, and it shouldn't surprise me so much.
There IS what's wrong and what's right, what's fair and what's unfair
Before you wonder why I'm not listening, have you bothered to ask yourselves what they are?! whether or not it's fair to me?
And just for your information, I DO listen, hoping something new to hear. But I never do.
Once again, I talk to myself like I'm insane, whine a little, object and tell myself it's sad..
Then I go to bed, wake up the next morning, and decide it's easier to forget. I act like I have no problem with the shower of orders I get because that it's eventually what will make them happy and spare me the headache. I pretend that I'm a happy flower rainbow butterfly child and that nothing can get in the way of that. I do things that really contradict my beliefs and conscience just to make sure that happens.
And that now, is absolute justice.
