I've met this God

When having a conversation with a friend some time ago, he was asking me why this God, what concrete reasons do I have that make me believe in him.. I kept on digging my mind, I had never asked myself that because it was never just down to that for me. I could discuss this forever if God was just a theory for me, but at that time, when I started believing, he had ceased to be a theory.

The answer I was looking for and tried to word poorly, was that I've actually met him. Not physically seen or heard him, not hypothetically and not through things, but I've spiritually encountered and experienced this exceedingly peaceful and loving man and spirit. It was so true that I just knew he exists, and that he responds if you address him so sincerely, maybe in that way in particular or maybe not, it was not what mattered to me. I knew this is the God I have been looking for, and I knew that out of so many people, he chose to find me. I also knew that he knew me, because he was never presumptuous with me and addressed me in the way he knew I'd accept.

At times I ask myself things, like how exclusively does God exist in that way of approaching him, how loving he is to people who still don't know him.. and I've come to several conclusions


I don't know if I believe in a God who was born of a woman and lived on earth. What I do know is that my God is humble enough to walk in our shoes, and know what it is like to live in a broken world, even if that didn't really happen.

I can't tell for sure that God suffered on a cross and was oppressed for us, but I can tell you with all the heart I have that this God knows me when I suffer, like he's been through it before. I believe without a doubt that he loves his children enough to take a bullet for them, had this bullet been that of forgiving their choice to separate from him, or a wooden cross.

I don't know if the Bible is the untainted and untouched word of God. But if you ask me what it wants to say, I would say peace, strength, love and Holiness. What I look for in a God is nothing more or less.


Dear God,

I am so thankful and grateful you have found me. It's like you've taken me into the backstage of life and loved me so much while showing me, that it does not hurt to see the truth. You are so whole, holy, and accepting that no matter how far I go from you, I can't spend more than a few days at this distance. I don't even like to remember how it has been for me without you. It's like I was disabled at all aspects, and there was nothing I could do about it but hope you existed.

I love you God and I know you've loved me first. I have a father and he's not like everyone else's. If I had been born of my human father I would have been a piece of flesh, nothing more. You gave me your spirit and chose me among others, that I will call no one else a father but you. If I have no job, no money and no company I will never call myself an orphan because he who has created all these, knows the number of the hairs on my head. He knows every single wish of mine and will make them all come true in spite of how any human wants to impede them.


Your loving daughter,
Myself