dream!

I had the saddest dream of my life!!

I was pregnant and I lost my baby, I was so happy when I was pregnant, I couldn't breathe well, but I didn't care. I was just so happy, it was due soon. And suddenly I lost him, I gave birth to a dead baby. I was so sad. I was really sad. I woke up and teared a little.

Then I met my uncle's wife who's pregnant, and was a bit jealous of her.

I can't believe how stupid this is.

But my entire day was influenced by that dream. I was sad for the entire day.

Everybody's gotta learn sometime..

I love..

- School
- My family
- Good time with friends
- Sudden attacks of being happy
- Time with God
- When my brother lies on my bed and refuses to get up because he doesn't want me to sleep yet
- When I torture him to make him get up
- Beautiful men
- Eye contact with people (particularly strangers)
- Biology
- Looking at a good picture
- Taking one
- Exams
- Most of my teachers
- Late night phone calls with close people
- Hugs that actually mean something
- Long walks
- The beach at night
- How sun makes hair smell this particular smell
- Eating contaminated food with friends because we have no money
- Crying with passion
- Stroking people's hair
- Swimming
- Apples
- Eating after being full just for the high of it
- The word "mouth"
- A good concert
- Coming home late just because I can
- Talking about my imaginary friend as if he were real
- New people
- Flip flops
- Making up words
- The warmth in my body after a deep breath
- Finishing a good book
- Dressing like a boy
- Dressing like a girl (on occassions)
- Being addicted to a good song
- Grey's Anatomy
- Collar bones
- Looking at really old pictures
- Reading things I wrote a long time ago
- Sneezing
- Ice cream
- Feet
- Having a cold and a red nose
- Cold water after being thirsty
- Animals (except for fish)
- The internet
- My name
- Babies
- Pregnant women
- Wearing shorts
- Microscopes
- Pencil colors
- Singing
- Being too lazy to smile or make an expression
- Long hair on men
- Short neat beards
- Film cameras
- Running into people I never thought I'd meet

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- : I'm beginning to hate myself.
Me: Why?
- : I don't know..
Me: ...

There was silence.


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