Revelation

I have successfully violated all my half baked standards of being a good person.

I'm not a good person.

Not because of something I've done, It's something I repetitively habitually wholeheartedly do and tell myself I won't do it again every time I do it

Not only that it hurts me and my self image irreversibly, It also hurts and misleads people I love, in ways I would never ever accept to be hurt.

The thing is, this time, I admit I'll do it again. And I admit I'm not a good person because of it.

And I don't know what to do about it.